Wednesday, October 22, 2008


Today I got to stand in and be in the service of another. I was driving from one doctor's office to another heading west on I-40 when I see a VW Jetta on the side of the road and a woman standing outside on the phone. So instinctively I pulled off the highway and walked back to her car to ask her if she was ok and if she need some help. I asked her if she had a flat and she said she did. I said no problem I'll take care of it. When I got to the tire it wasn't just flat, it was annihilated... I found a picture that best represented what the tire looked like...

She says to me... "I probably should have pulled off sooner, but I didn't realize that I even had a flat" I looked at her and said, "but you were driving on the rim." I'm surprised she didn't get in an accident.

Well the incident isn't the reason for this post but more the meaning behind what one can learn through the incident.

What does it mean to be selfless? How about "devoted to others' welfare or interest and not one's own," How do we teach ourselves to be selfless though? Some of us our born with the innate sense of being selfless and the concern for the welfare of others. I like to think that I have these qualities but I do have to constantly think of how I can serve those around me.

"A selfless person is one who is more concerned about the happiness and well-being of another than about his or her own convenience or comfort, one who is willing to serve another when it is neither sought for nor appreciated, or one who is willing to serve even those whom he or she dislikes. A selfless person displays a willingness to sacrifice, a willingness to purge from his or her mind and heart personal wants, and needs, and feelings. Instead of reaching for and requiring praise and recognition for himself, or gratification of his or her own wants, the selfless person will meet these very human needs for others." (Peterson)

So I challenge everyone to look for those ways in which you can truly develop selflessness. When you wake up in the morning ask for those opportunities to serve, don't just ask for them, but when they are placed before you act on them. I will tell you this. When you server your fellow brothers and sisters you will be rewarded with things that can't be described. Remember though to remain humble in your service and to serve for the right purpose and not for the praise of man. Keep these experiences to yourself and learn from them. Teach yourself to always be concerned for others and to seek the opportunities to serve them.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


I just happen to have the best friend in the World if you were wondering. If you weren't wondering then you obviously should be wondering why my friend is so much better than your friend.

My friend is better than your friend... Don't believe me, you will after this.

I've got a friend that wont give in,
I've got a friend that's way to kind,
I've got a friend who makes me smile,
I've got a friend that makes me laugh,
I've got a friend that's never sad,
I've got a friend that's never mad,
I've got a friend that's always glad,
I've got a friend that's way to glad,
I've got a friend that's always there,
I've got a friend who loves to stair,
I've got a friend that's way to fair,
I've got a friend I can't describe,
I've got a friend you can't describe,
I've got a friend that's better than you,
I've got a friend that's better than me,
I've got a friend if you can see,
I got a friend that's best for me...

It can only be best put in words from the Stone Temple Pilots... "If you should die before me, ask if you can bring a friend."

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


Day 9,141 of my life...

As you're waiting for the fog to clear do you turn on the fog lights, do you turn on your brights, or maybe you're real daring and turn the lights completely off?

However you chose to wait for the fog to clear is your choice, but what makes you feel the safest? I kind of look at driving with your lights off is like running with scissors in both hands... You're only destined to trip and skewer yourself some place unfortunate like the kidneys, the eye, your upper lip, or most unfortunate the heart. How many times have we skewered ourselves in the heart? Maybe not with a pair of scissors intentionally, but maybe with how we treat ourselves. Do we wake up in the morning stretch, look in the mirror, and say "damn I can't wait to break my own heart today?"

I feel that lately to often I've "been breaking my own heart." Maybe not physically twisting and pulling and "breaking" my heart, but with the way I treat myself could be looked at and classified as "breaking my own hear." I feel that seeing myself one way and only pondering what I should, could, and want to become, but then laughing and mocking my own thoughts and blowing myself off. If we get mad when someone blows us off, why don't we get mad when we blow ourselves off?

You might ask, but how do I blow myself off, Adam? It's simple actually to blow oneself off. Do you ever tell yourself I'm going to do this, I'm going to live my life this way, or maybe even go to bed saying... "Tomorrow is going to be a new day"? Then we wake up, fall short and forget everything we just told ourselves the night before. IE "blowing oneself off"

We've all done it so don't be afraid to admit it to yourself that you've on occasion blown yourself off for something that you thought was better. I've done if for the last three years. How do I stop blowing myself off you might ask... The first step, as with most first steps... realizing you have a problem. Do you treat yourself with respect? Do you wake up and look in the mirror and ask, "What can I do today to become a better person?" Maybe it can start with just listening to what you have to say to yourself and stop blowing off that little voice inside that so many like to call a conscious. I used to think I didn't have a conscious until one day recently I realized that it wasn't that I didn't have a conscious, it was just that I was to busy blowing it off and doing whatever it was that I wanted to do.

So when you begin to have this self realization of blowing yourself off and that maybe you should listen to yourself, do you turn on the brights or the fog lights? What's the difference in using the brights over the fog lights? I'm not sure if you're aware of what happens when you turn on your brights in the fog but if you're not, you can't see much but a white cloud directly in front of you that you can't see through. So I believe that turning on the brights is almost like focusing on just an isolated problem. You're only seeing the problem that is directly in front of you, and you're not seeing the whole picture and the way out of your problem.

We're not focusing on the root of our problems when using our brights. Sure with the brights we can see really well for about five feet but what happens when we round the next corner and didn't happen to see the 12 reindeer pulling a red sleigh in the middle of the road? I'll tell you what happens, you have about 3 or 4 billion upset little kids (minus those of the Jewish and Jehovah Witness Faith who could care less of the accident). All though, we do have to focus on the problems that are immediately in front of us, we must see past those problems and see that we are greater than these problems and can get through them with "a little help with our fog lights."

When we turn off the brights and turn on the fog lights we're able to see the road and our problems that are directly in front of us, but we're also able to see the roots to our problems and the way past them. We are able to see with greater detail the two yellow lines and how to work our way through the fog that we may at one point drive until the fog clears. That's what this is about. Staying on course until you've cleared the fog. Just because you've cleared the fog doesn't mean the fog isn't going to come back but helps you see what lies past the fog. If we use our fog lights and constantly focus on getting through the fog we may indeed one day drive on a road where we see signs that say "welcome to the fogless road, a road that will never become foggy on you and you can drive without any impairment." Now that's the road I'm looking for.

I've been stuck driving in the fog on the belt line for the last few years but I've now decided to turn on my fog lights and look for my exit. The fog may still be around but I truly am looking for my exit. I'm pretty sure it's just up ahead somewhere on the right. When the fog clears some more I'm sure I wont miss it this time and I'll be just fine, but until then I'm going to drive with my fog lights on and look for the green sign on the right that reads "Exit 7". Exit seven you ask? Do you're own research... I know why I'm looking for exit seven!

For those of you who read this... I express my love, my gratefulness, my sincerity, my heart, and my passions to you... May we all one day "Realize why we're looking for Exit 7 and do it without blowing ourselves off amidst the fog.

Monday, October 13, 2008


I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

Sometimes I just wish I had a carpet full of magic. If I had a carpet full of magic I'd give rides, and not just to extremely hot princesses named Jasmine. It'd be more like a come one come all on my magic carpet ride... "Sorry, limited seating available"

Would I have to turn those away who truly needed a ride, or would I "make a little room"? What about the hitch hikers? Where would they sit? How about on the laps of all the pretty princesses named Jasmine or Yasmin! Oh yeah and there's no judging aloud on my magic carpet ride! I'd have to put a sign in front of every seat that said "Judgers beware lest ye be thrown from this Magic Carpet Ride from extremely high altitudes!"

So this brings me to my real question... Is a Magic Carpet ride the ticket to free oneself? Is this my ticket out? Probably not because I'm pretty sure when I needed it I'd have to tell the princess and the bums "Sorry, my rugs in the shop you think I could get a ride."

My rug isn't really in the shop, it was just made to look that way. Like temptation, is it really all it's cracked up to be? Of course it is! It's there and if your wearing horse blinders please take them off because it's all around us and there's no way to hide it.

From the words of one of my truly enlightened brothers... "Yea, why should I give way to temptation, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my peace and afflict my soul?"

Do we let temptation get us down. If so dial 555-ADAM and I'll be by on my Magic Carpet to give you a ride. I say let not temptation get the best of you but you get the best of temptation. Stand up for what you believe I've found and do what's right. Show your true colors at all times and if your colors have faded over the years, quick grab a marker and do you best to brighten them up.

Just remember on my Magic Carpet ride, we'll fly over the roof tops "Over, sideways and under" singing;

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But, now, from way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you

Trust me that's what we'll sing and we'll sing it from the roof tops, the mountain tops, and maybe even atop the "A"! But for now I'd like to tell you "au revoir" "adiós" "Tschüs" and "ciao"

Today's enlightenment... "See above paragraphs"

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Can I have a Big Dog of Soberness please?!?

When you're sitting at the bar of life what do you ask for to drink? Do you ask for something that makes you lose you balance and fall of your stool, or do you ask for a big glass of soberness to help you sit up straight on your stool and help those around you.

Do you find yourself looking around at those stumbling across the room trying to make their way to the bathroom, the girl covering her mouth as hard as she can as she runs to the bathroom hoping she won't throw up before she makes it to the bathroom, or the belligerent man sling his arms as the security staff escorts him off the property?

As the reality check begins to set in as I sip on my glass of soberness I can't help but ask myself, how did I get to this point in my life? Where and what was it that made me decided to choose the left and not quite the right? What got me from point A to point B? Me! I got me from point A to point B, I decided to choose the left but why? A since of disrespect for oneself will get you to this point.

How do you find that sense of respect for oneself again though? Is it through much deliberation and inner soul searching? I believe it takes time to work on ones inner self. I don't think it happens over night either. I believe the need for a sense of change may come over night but whether or not you're willing to take that sense and run with it is up to you!

Today's enlightenment... "ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened"

Thursday, October 9, 2008


I was thinking today the true meaning behind being free. What does being free really mean. Webster says to be free means "not determined by anything beyond its own nature or being : choosing or capable of choosing for itself" it can also be an adjective, a transitive verb, an adverb, and even a verb. The UrbanDictionary however defines free as "How chinese people say three".

What does it truly mean to be free though?

Does it mean that you live your life in a way that you're free from all temptation? Does it mean that you seek to find the greater meaning behind what it truly feels like to "be free"?

As I ponder what being free means to me, I can't help but think it has to be a life with no bars. Physical steal bars, bars & pubs where you meet guys named Micky, or just plain figurative bars that we build around ourselves without even know we're doing it. When we build these figurative bars around us are we doing this to keep other out of our life or are we doing it to keep ourselves out of finding our own true potential?

Is being free simply the right for one to chose his own destiny and the right to making ones own decisions? Do we let others decided our freedom without even knowing it sometimes? I believe that we let society and others decided our freedom sometimes. I feel that to truly be free, one must not say three... but stand up in that exact moment when they should and make the choice that makes one feel most free inside.

Take down your bars... and as the world turns so shall you with it, freely!

Today's enlightenment... "To set yourself free, you must truly forgive yourself of all things!" -Adam Phelps

Wednesday, October 8, 2008


Do you ever find yourself thinking as the leaves fall I should start turning them over? Well the last few days I've spent much time trying to turn them over.

I've found myself in the middle of an internal debate. What's right and what's wrong. Obviously I've always been good at making the wrong decisions and thinking that everything was alright with things being that way. Today though, I search for deeper meaning. I want to find myself who I've lost within myself. I need to find Adam.

I've begun to do the things that used to be important to me... The things that once were important that turned into frivolous things of the past. I am going to blog my journey to the never ending land of happiness and you're more than welcome to follow along. I don't have anyone that looks at my blog so I'm pretty sure this is going to be me plotting this so I can come back to read it for myself.

Please feel free to add your input or to shed light on any area of things you feel compelled to.

Today's enlightenment... "Yea, and how is it that ye have forgotten that the Lord is able to do all things according to his will, for the children of men, if it so be that they exrcise faith in him? Wherefore, let us be faithful to him."